
Composer: Nobuo Uematsu
Arranger: John Oeth
Program Notes | Originally written for piano by the renowned composer Nobuo Uematsu, this mellow opener to the popular video game Final Fantasy X has been adapted and arranged for fingerstyle guitar by John Oeth.
Composer: Benj Pasek and Justin Paul
Arrangement: Alex Lacamoire
Program Notes | I fell in love with the song “Requiem” the moment I first heard it back in 2021 or so. The song resonates with me because to me it feels like challenging the societal notion that children are supposed to be grateful to the adults who raise them regardless of how they’re treated and miss them when they’re gone no matter what. It captures beautifully the complex layers and internal turmoil of losing or cutting out one’s abusive relatives. Back in early 2024, I cut both my abusive birth parents out of my life for the sake of my mental health. My performance tonight, which happens to be on my birth father’s birthday, is dedicated to finding my way through the messy, complex nature of my own humanity in the aftermath regardless of what society wants me to feel. Text: Why should I play this game of pretend? Remembering through a secondhand sorrow? Such a great son and wonderful friend Oh, don't the tears just pour I could curl up and hide in my room There in my bed, still sobbing tomorrow I could give in to all of the gloom But tell me, tell me what for Why should I have a heavy heart? Why should I start to break in pieces? Why should I go and fall apart for you? Why should I play the grieving boy and lie? Saying that I miss you And that my world has gone dark without your light? I will sing no requiem tonight You were the flood that swallowed us whole Refusing a love we endlessly gave you You were a fire out of control The blaze that couldn't be tamed Why should I have a heavy heart? Why should I say I'll keep you with me? Why should I go and fall apart for you? Why should I play the grieving boy and lie? Saying that I miss you And that my world has gone dark without your light? I will sing no requiem tonight 'Cause when the villains fall, the kingdoms never weep No one lights a candle to remember No, no one mourns at all When they lay them down to sleep So, don't tell me that I didn't have it right Don't tell me that it wasn't black and white After all you put me through Don't say it wasn't true That you were not the monster That I knew 'Cause I cannot play the grieving boy and lie Saying that I miss you And that my world has gone dark I will sing no requiem I will sing no requiem tonight Oh, oh
Lyrics | Why should I play this game of pretend? Remembering through a secondhand sorrow? Such a great son and wonderful friend Oh, don't the tears just pour? I could curl up and hide in my room There in my bed, still sobbing tomorrow I could give in to all of the gloom But tell me, tell me what for Why should I have a heavy heart? Why should I start to break in pieces? Why should I go and fall apart for you? Why should I play the grieving boy and lie Saying that I miss you And that my world has gone dark without your light? I will sing no requiem tonight I gave you the world, you threw it away Leaving these broken pieces behind you Everything wasted, nothing to say So I can sing no requiem I hear your voice, I feel you near Within these words, I finally find you And now that I know that you are still here I will sing no requiem tonight Why should I have a heavy heart? Why should I say I'll keep you with me? Why should I go and fall apart for you? Why should I play the grieving boy and lie Saying that I miss you And that my world has gone dark without your light? (I can see your light) I will sing no requiem Tonight 'Cause when the villains fall, the kingdoms never weep No one lights a candle to remember No, no one mourns at all When they lay them down to sleep So, don't tell me that I didn't have it right Don't tell me that it wasn't black and white After all you put me through Don't say it wasn't true That you were not the monster That I knew 'Cause I cannot play the grieving boy and lie Saying that I miss you And that my world has gone dark I will sing no requiem I will sing no requiem I will sing no requiem tonight Oh-oh, oh-oh Oh-oh Oh-ohhh
Composer: J. S. Bach
Program Notes | This is one of the most famous works for cello of all time.
Author: Morgana Andersen
Program Notes | A lesbian couple falls asleep at their couch and awakens to find their aging house has changed—subtly at first but then more and more unnervingly. All the while, they hear strange noises in the vicinity.
Text | “Wait, rewind,” I say. “I wasn’t finished.” Claire rewinds the tape, and pauses. I read the dialogue card. As soon as Hutter crossed the bridge, he was seized by the eerie visions he so often told me of… “Okay,” I say. “Continue.” Claire laughs. “Sally James, owner of the last black and white TV.” “Best way to watch silent films,” I say. We kiss. As I grow sleepier, I give up on reading the title cards and just enjoy the music. Claire yawns. I snuggle up against her and pull the blanket up around me. We should probably go to bed, but the couch is so comfortable. My eyes slide shut. I awaken to darkness, still nestled against my girlfriend. She stirs, and sits up. “Thanks for turning the TV off,” I say. “Wait, I thought you did,” she says. I get up and feel for a light switch but can’t find one. I bump into a desk. A desk that should be on the other side of the room. Maybe I’m still waking up. “Maybe it auto turned off,” Claire says. By reflex, I shake my head. “It’s too old. It— Oh, what am I doing? The lights’re out, too, I bet.” My hand brushes against an old lantern. My grandma had a few of those, but I moved them to the attic after she died. All of them. On the off chance, I feel around for matches, and find a box. I light the lantern. Slowly, my eyes adjust. The lightswitches are gone. A baby grand piano sits where the TV should be. I hear a thud in the next room. Claire runs to me and grabs my hand. I take a breath, and we follow the sound. This should be the kitchen. That door leads to the kitchen. Not a hallway, and certainly not such a long one. A door stands at the end of the hall. Shadows dance along the walls as we move forward. The floor slopes upward. Something clatters and bangs in the distance. The noises grow louder. “Is someone there?” I ask. “Yeeeesssss,” A ghastly voice says. I gulp. Claire looks at me. I squeeze her hand. She nods, and we continue. The floor steepens. The hall lengthens. Somehow, we reach the end. We enter the door, and slam it shut behind us. I look around. “Well, at least the kitchen’s still here,” Claire says. The fridge is gone. The stove is an old woodfire oven. The table’s set with my grandma’s favorite plates and silverware. Near the end of the room, a person’s shadow appears, then climbs a flight of stairs and vanishes. We follow, reaching a tall double door at the top. The doors are covered in my grandma’s paintings. Claire squeezes my hand. I smile at her and nod. We open the doors. I can’t see the walls or the ceiling of the next room. It’s bright, and vast. Fog covers the floor. Ahead, I see her. My grandma. Not how I knew her, but younger, like in her pictures. I drop the lantern and run up and hug her. “I’ve missed you,” I say. “Grandma, I have so many questions.” She hugs me back. The room shifts. Walls and ceiling fade into view, sharpen, come into focus. The shape of the room is all too familiar. We’re back in the living room. Light switches reappear. I hear the creak of a desk sliding along the floor, back to where it goes. The piano morphs into an old TV. No. No! My grandma’s hug grows weaker. I can see through her now. Then she’s gone again. The TV turns back on. I scream.
Composer: Frédéric Chopin
Program Notes | A moody and playful piano piece by a beloved Polish composer.
Composer: Bimsy Clustercamp
Lyrics | I think it's getting dark I think a lonely song's about to start The sun's about to set And I want to want to want to just forget I don't ask for a lot Just one thing to bring on everything I've got Love me through the winter Love me through the storm Love me when it's cold outside the way you Love me when it's warm Love me when it rains out Love me when it's dry Love me as the lights go out or just Love me to pass the time I think I need to rest I think I need my head upon your chest I think that I'm afraid As I think about the memories we made This music is all mine So hear each word or just the first two of every line Love me through the winter Love me through the storm Love me when it's cold outside the way you Love me when it's warm Love me when it rains out Love me when it's dry Love me as the lights go out or just Love me to pass the time
Composer: Cassandra Monique Batie & Jennifer Decilveo
Program Notes | Originally written to be "a voice for the voiceless," I chose this song because it speaks to a desire to empower those who have lost their hope. Hope is a hard thing for us to hang onto right now as queer and trans people, but we need to persevere in community with each other. When we rise up, that's the first step. Then we take the next step, and the next step, and the one after that, and the one after that. When we reach out to the person next to us, we bring them with us and before too long we've got a whole damn movement on our hands! And we will move mountains.
Lyrics | You're broken down and tired Of living life on a merry-go-round And you can't find the fighter But I see it in you, so we gon' walk it out And move mountains We gon' walk it out And move mountains And I'll rise up, I'll rise like the day I'll rise up, I'll rise unafraid I'll rise up And I'll do it a thousand times again And I'll rise up, high like the waves I'll rise up in spite of the ache I'll rise up And I'll do it a thousand times again For you For you For you For you When the silence isn't quiet And it feels like it's getting hard to breathe And I know you feel like dying But I promise we'll take the world to its feet And move mountains Bring it to its feet And move mountains And I'll rise up, I'll rise like the day I'll rise up, I'll rise unafraid I'll rise up And I'll do it a thousand times again For you For you For you For you All we need, all we need is hope And for that, we have each other And for that, we have each other, and We will rise, we will rise We'll rise up We'll rise I'll rise up, rise like the day I'll rise up in spite of the ache I will rise a thousands times again And we'll rise up, high like the waves We'll rise up in spite of the ache We'll rise up And we'll do it a thousands times again For you For you For you For you
Accompanist: Mikey Prince
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Composer: Dave Molloy
Lyrics | Is this how I die? Ridiculed and laughed at Wearing clown shoes Is this how I die? Furious and reckless Sick with booze How did I live? I taste every wasted minute Every time I turned away From the things that might have healed me How long have I been sleeping? Is this how I die? Frightened like a child Lazy and numb Is this how I die? Pretending and preposterous And dumb How did I live? Was I kind enough and good enough? Did I love enough? Did I ever look up and see the moon and the stars and the sky? Oh, why have I been sleeping? They say we are asleep until we fall in love We are children of dust and ashes But when we fall in love we wake up And we are a god and angels weep But if I die here tonight I die in my sleep All of my life I spent searching the words of poets and saints and prophets and kings Now at the end all I know that I've learned is that all that I know is I don't know a thing So easy to close off Place the blame outside Hiding in my room at night So terrified All the things I could've been But I never had the nerve Life and love, I don't deserve So alright! Alright! I've had my time Close my eyes Let the death bells chime! Bury me in burgundy I just don't care! Nothing's left I looked everywhere! Is this how I die? Was there ever any other way my life could be? Is this how I die? Such a slough of feelings inside of me But then why am I screaming? Why am I shaking? Oh god, was there something that I missed? Did I squander my divinity? Was happiness within me the whole time? They say we are asleep until we fall in love We are children of dust and ashes But when we fall in love we wake up And we are a god and angles weep But if I die here tonight I die in my sleep They say we are asleep until we fall in love And I'm so ready To wake up now I wanna wake up Don't let me die while I'm like this I wanna wake up God, don't let me die while I'm like this Please let me wake up now God, don't let me die while I'm like this I'm ready I'm ready To wake up
Composer: Frankie Wolf
Program Notes | This original piece is an onomatopoetic instrumental composed for the baritone ukulele, a composition meant to capture the sound that the dogwood tree might make as they complete the bloom cycle.
Composer: Stars (Torquil Campbell, Chris Seligman, Patrick McGee, Amy Millan & Evan Cranley)
Program Notes | Originally written as a bit of a joke, Barricade is a song about two soccer hooligans falling in and out of love. Inspired by the fact that love can happen to anyone at anytime, I have chosen to perform it as a timely reminder that love can bloom, even on a battlefield.
Lyrics | Trapped on the terraces, I looked at you and knew You were the only thing that mattered There was no one for me but you In Harmony Street we beat a man Just for standing there I held my breath as I watched you swing Then run your fingers through your hair Oh, how could anyone not love the terrible things you do? Oh, how could anyone not want to try and help you? In Bermondsey in Burberry, you held me at the barricade The pigs arrived with tear gas And I wept at the mistakes we made We stalked the streets like animals And danced as windows shattered For the island, for the thrill of it, for everything that mattered Oh, how could anyone not want to rip it all apart? Oh, how could anyone not love your cold, black heart? I found you on a Saturday, and that was where I lost you You had to finally walk away because of what it cost you Years later on, I saw your face In line to catch the morning train You looked like you'd been softened Like you never really loved the pain Oh, how could anyone not finally diminish? The thrill of blood comes instantly There's only darkness at the finish Meet me at the barricade, I'll be at the barricade Meet me at the barricade The love died, but the hate can't fade I'll be at the barricade The love died, but the hate won't fade
Author: Tesseract King
Program Notes | A poem about a starship that falls in love with her captain.
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Composer: wylan river-zaviied
Program Notes | A musical coda is the concluding section of a song. This is to where I will always return to: to whom I have always been, and what I have always known.
Lyrics | It’s not regret but it is an ache Bright and early in the morning light I worship darkness and I hide from the light But there’s something to be said for the candles of dawn Shadow burn quickly Shadow burn bright Afterimages of who I’ll never be Flash paper sketches of who I never was - Yet there is warmth here Where I have tread before With those who walked with me And the views I chose to see Still there is warmth here With rock and rain and mud With breath and pain and love Candlelight and shadows from above - Melancholy and tender skin Parasol’s that see too little sunshine Once again I look across this memory land Same eyes and yet nothing looks the same Seer’s burn quickly Seer’s burn bright Fond farewells to all the shadow’s that I’ve been Waving from the sunset as I wade into the night (to chorus) - I placed a candle on a boat that I built out of twigs I gave it a leaf for a sail and I sent it on its way Dusk and dawn cheer me on as I head into the night All ashore, these people that I’ve been, remind me we’re still friends - And there’s still warmth there Where I have tread before As those I’ll never be And the views I’m glad I’ve seen Yes, there is warmth here Through the blood and pain and love With rock and rain and mud Candlelight as I sail into the night Candlelight as I sail into the night Candlelight as I sail into the night
Composer: Riley
Program Notes | This is a celebratory affirmation that Ronald Reagan's idea (and Trump's) that some people deserve help and others don't is not true!! I was one of the "undeserving poor" of Reagan's time. I was too sick to work but could not prove it to Welfare because science had yet to discover my illness. The music for the song is styled after the joyous dancing and singing of the Hare Krishna people whose music used to fill the air at Third and Pine. Feel free to get up and dance!
Lyrics | There are no undeserving, there are only stories we have not yet heard. We are all deserving; every being has goodness and worth! Zephyr in the sky: your breath, my breath, breath of all beings since the dawn of life. Breathe with the jungles, breathe with the butterflies, Breathe with the ocean that gives us life. Grapes on the vine, apples in the orchard, do not choose between rich or poor. They give to you, they give to me, They give to the ant and the honeybee. bridge: Live like the zephyr who breathes as one with all life past and life to come. Live like the orchard that gives so free; there can be enough for what we need. Child of the heavens, child of the elements, born of the universe of the one! No more than dust, no less than the stars, we deserve a good life whoever we are! Live like the universe; let your heart expand to everything, near and far. Live like the orchard that gives so free, there can be enough for what we need (2x) There can be enough for all that we need.
Accompanist: Mikey Prince
Composer: Stephen Flaherty
Lyrics | Go out and tell our story Let it echo far and wide Make them hear you Make them hear you How Justice was our battle And how Justice was denied Make them hear you Make them hear you And say to those who blame us For the way we chose to fight, That sometimes there are battles That are more than black or white And I could not put down my sword When Justice was my right Make them hear you Go out and tell our story, go on share with everyone Make them hear you Make them hear you And tell them, ""In our struggle, We were not the only ones"" Make them hear you Make them hear you Your sword could be a sermon Or the power of the pen Teach every child to raise their voice And then my allies, then Will justice be demanded by ten million citizens Make them hear you- When they hear you, I'll be near you Again
Accompanist: Yoshi Das
Land & Labor Acknowledgement
We would like to acknowledge that we rehearse and perform on the land of the first peoples of Seattle, the Duwamish, Muckleshoot, Stillaguamish, Cayuse, Umatilla, and Walla Walla tribes, past and present and commit to honor with gratitude the land itself and the stewardship of these indigenous tribes. We encourage you to join us in this commitment by contributing to the local Heron's Nest Outdoor Education and Restorative Justice program and Real Rent Duwamish.
We respectfully acknowledge the enslaved people, primarily of African descent, on whose exploited labor this country is built, with little to no recognition. Today, we are indebted to their labor and the labor of the many Black and brown people that continue to work in the shadows for our collective benefit. We also support the #BlackVoicesMatter movement and pledge to work towards anti-racism in all aspects of our music.
Thank You
A huge thank you to everyone who made this event possible. In particular, Jade for undertaking the massive task of assembling the auction, Rosemary for leading the Talent Show, Leni for Emceeing, Jolene for doing AV and all the volunteers who staffed our event today.
We hope you can join us for our next concert, In the Light of their Names, honoring the trans siblings we have lost this year for Trans Day of Remembrance. Performances are on November 15 & 20 at University Congregational UCC. Tickets at www.stanceseattle.org/performances
Emcee
Leni Markins (e/they)
The Seattle Trans and Nonbinary Choral Ensemble, better known as STANCE, was founded in 2022 as the first chorus that is led by and for gender diverse singers in Washington. Our mission is to provide a vocal community free of gendered expectations to explore and express ourselves through music. We have rapidly grown from a grassroots movement to our current 100+ singers capacity. With your support, we hope to eventually expand to include a trans youth chorus.
STANCE Leadership
Founder
Haven Wilvich (she/her)
Haven first dreamed of a trans and nonbinary led community choir in 2016 when she got fustrated with how difficult it is being a feminine Bass singer in traditional choirs. When she's not focuse on community building, she does vaccine research, watches birds, and kayaks Washington's many beautiful bodies of water.
Executive & Artistic Director
Dr. Cee E. Adamson (she/they)
In the distinguished sphere of classical music, Dr. Cee E. Adamson (she/they) stands as a beacon of versatility and excellence, seamlessly weaving together her roles as a choral conductor, opera singer, voice teacher, arts administrator, and student affairs practitioner with grace and passion. As a mezzo-soprano, Cee occupies a fluid place as an operatic talent, capable of treading the beguiling and liminal space between the countertenor and mezzo-soprano, and her vocal versatility has been well showcased in roles as Oberon in Benjamin Britten's A Midsummer Night's Dream, Giulio Cesare in Handel's Giulio Cesare, The Sorceress in Purcell's Dido and Aeneas, and tragic and comic roles from Mercedes in Carmen to Florence Pike in Albert Herring. Cee was also requested to appear as a featured supernumerary in Glimmerglass Opera’s production of Philip Glass’s Orphée. As a choral educator, Dr. Adamson assumes the role of a visionary choral director whose leadership has transformed vocal ensembles into beacons of musical excellence. Cee is known for her meticulous attention to vocal technique and ensemble precision and her ability to cultivate a deep emotional connection within her choirs, resulting in authentic performances that resonate deeply with audiences and performers alike. Through her academic and professional practice, Cee aims to reshape the narrative around who is seen and heard in classical vocal and choral music. Visibility is not just important; it is critical—it means ensuring that underrepresented populations and identities are represented across all facets of the arts, from historical pioneers to contemporary innovators. In December 2024, Cee completed the Doctor of Musical Arts degree from the University of Washington, specializing in vocal performance under the guidance of Dr. Carrie Shaw, as well as choral conducting with Dr. Geoffrey Boers and Dr. Giselle Wyers.
Assistant Artistic Director / Collaborative Accompanist
Mikey Prince (they/he)
Mikey found STANCE in 2022 after looking into trans choirs across the US to research trans-centered choral pedagogy. When he is not joyously music-making with community in STANCE, Mikey is joyously music-making with K-5 students as a music educator in Seattle Public Schools.
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